Blurred Meaning

At times, the tone and inflection behind stated words bears so much more weight than the actual message itself. The emotional impact hits my soul leaving me pensive for hours on end. The constant rumination about the intended message along with lingering insecurities wreaks havoc on my brain. The more analysis you put forward, the more confusion results. The weaknesses that gently simmer within me are illuminated, a form of wild incineration. The people around me use these vulnerabilities as their ammunition: they light the torch with their raging fire and use it as their clandestine weapon. The feeling of invisibility that this method of defense gives them allows them to propel forward and steer them away from their own problems, the ones that cause them to lash out and consume those around them. The void that needs to be addressed, instead accumulates and gains more momentum in order to destroy them the more they avoid it. This unproductive repetitive cycle of improperly dealing with problems at hand and spreading them to others becomes toxic. If left alone, this form of distress can cause problems personally and professionally. The ability to communicate becomes dismantled and relationships become strained. It becomes difficult to navigate ones job, friendships, and oneself. The inability to experience remorse leads to further resentment and a lack of awareness for what one has become- the walking dead.