A Blog Between the Lines

How to Survive Uncertainty Many of us, especially with the recent current event of COVID-19, have been placed in uncharted territory. What this implies is that many have been laid off, placed on furlough, or worse, have simply resigned due to extenuating circumstances. In my case, the pandemic has created an environment of chaos, causing unruly and psychotic behavior amongst otherwise tolerable coworkers. The whole gamut is included here: difficulty concentrating, suspiciousness, and outright anxiety. This has created a very hostile work environment, aggravating any preexisting stressors due to the public health crisis. Out of an effort to mitigate questionable conduct from escalating further, my resignation went in immediately, without a two weeks notice. Despite the sudden decision that was made, an email to my boss with a resignation letter went in the week before, but his ability to negotiate my stay at the job curtailed the letter, at least temporarily. Thankfully, with...

Whenever we try to figure out where we are headed, it seems as though a destination may never abound. Whether it has to do with a career change, choosing the right item on a menu, or starting a fad diet, it can all lead to a sense of frustration. The more we attempt to reconcile our indecisiveness, the more blurred the path towards a resolution becomes. We get stuck in an inevitable rut, which leads to more unproductive behavior. This lack of progress is considered a spiritual limbo: a place where people rarely escape from. Similar to a prison term, you may start to question the many choices you've made, and how you've brought about your current situation. These 'life lessons' no longer seem to have a rhyme or reason; what we once thought of as a learning experience can no longer serve us for the better. All the inner commotion can sink in and weigh us down heavily, causing us to reevaluate our purpose, our mode of existence and reality. These feelings can easily sti...

Writing has become a form of relief, a mental escape. All of the thoughts that seep through the crevices of my soul seem to elucidate my mental state, allowing me to self discover. At times, the task can prove challenging due to an inability to express myself justly. Matters of truth become vague and the illusion of my thoughts evade me. When my writing lags, my thoughts disappear into an infinite and invisible essence of time. This leaves me wondering whether this moment of reflection will ever return, to allow me to discover exactly where the synthesis of thoughts will lead me. This path of experiencing myself, allowing me to understand how to let my mind wander as it usually does, has given me a total sense of freedom. To allow myself to accept the intrusive nature of my mind and come to conclusions, all at once, has given me a sense of independence and control, one that has been long awaited for. Regardless of where my mind may lead me, the ability to come to terms with it and let ...

Now, more than ever, the world seems to be at a halt. Businesses are no longer booming like they used to. Our friends and family seem more agitated than ever. The idea of tomorrow seems like an eternity. Life in and of itself, doesn't seem as promising as it used to. The fantasy sold to us by a retirement account now seems like a nightmare: a nonexistent point in time. The world is not what it used to be, everyone seems dazed. No one can really articulate their panic properly, so we just overcompensate by buying in excess- a false sense of security. We are ready to do what ever it takes to get by, whether it be washing our hands repetitively or buying a $15 can of overpriced Lysol. When did life become so precious? Did it really have to take a worldwide pandemic to reflect on the fragility of our time here? I guess so. Now, more than ever, I've become quite reflective myself. Lots of time has been on my hands and inevitably, lots of it has been put to the test mentally. ...